first post

well this is my first blog..... i literally connected to the internet just then and now that i'm in the comfort of my own home and not at work, i can blog on. See if this thing sticks....like some techy glue into my lifestyle and i can;t go a day without posting. mmm... we'll see.
It would be nice to start with something really generic like "why is there so much dog shit in Paris?' or "why is the world making everyone be in so much debt?" but alas I've had a really shit day and i probably just want to vent about that for a little...oh no here we go!
Yep, bad day! Don't have that many.. seem to keep it together most days and cope like the majority but I had a little outburst tonight. One thing happened today at work which i managed, quite easily, to lump in with something else in my life and then turn it into some greater conspiracy that everyone is out to get me down. Despite the rationale, that was sitting in the back of my brain during this outburst, i simply just wanted to have a good old cry and dismiss the logic that i actually have quite a blessed life and great people around me.
It's quite amazing how when you give something a little more power than is necessary it can turn into such a great force. Still, it hasn't been the greatest day and there is some reason behind this despair.
Anyway.. don't really want to go on and on right now. It seems pretty self-indulgent.. maybe i need to save this for my own eyes.. but i guess this is a good way to get comfortable with pouring my life online.
Ahhh the blog generation.